I'm sorry that I changed my pace..I don't know why I did it..Maybe it's because I needed some space..
In Love, Hearts were never meant to race..
And now I can't even reach your face..

(part of CB's lyrics)

你的到来让我的人生变得多么地快乐，你的离去却留下了无比的悲哀。。

正常。


You brought to my life..not just joy..but a warmth I have yet to feel..if it weren't for you..I have never felt so alive before..my heart that was once destined to be frozen somehow started pumping normally again..it was great, really..


But then you left..during my absence..leaving nothing..no regret..no guilt..I guess it was just meant to be..My world's back to the old days now..cold and emotionless..

I'm sorry..for whatever I did wrong..I should have seen the signs you were trying to show me that you were gonna leave me..
I'm sorry for whatever I did not do right..I should have known you better..

There are a tons of thing I wanted to do with you..I was thinking them all out..planning every move carefully..but I can't do that anymore..

I'm sorry, I'm really really... sorry....

But I wanna thank you too..for leaving me before I looked and treated you as a "habit", before I took you for granted..(don't get me wrong, it hurts..it really does..but at least the scar would heal without too much pain and guilt) I know I really cared for you instead of just pretending to..I really did..at least I know I loved you..At least I won't feel too sorry or bad about things..I just hope you know that I really really did love you..I never thought you would leave so quick..so forgive me..cause I too didn't want things to end this way..I don't know why you left..but I just hope you don't regret too much as me being your last owner..

May you rest in peace..Chester..
We miss you..and we love you forever and ever..Promise..
although we missed out on a lot of things, at least, this is the one,last promise I can keep..It's the best I can do..

I'm sorry..


Dedicated to my bunny Chester who left me so suddenly during my absence..

Stand By You by 东方神起

歌词

君がさよならを告げずに 出て行ったあの日からこの街の景色や匂いが 変わった気がするよ君のすべてになりたくて 交わした約束も果たされないまま 思い出に変わってしまうひとりきりで君が泣いたあの時 すぐに飛んで行けば今もまだ君は 僕の横にいてくれた?できるならばもう一度言いたかった 大好きって君への思いを溢れ出した言葉も 今は届かない君はどこにいて 誰とどこにいてどんな服を着て 何して笑ってるんだろう僕はここにいて 今もここにいて君と二人でまた会えると信じているよ変わらず想っているよ君だけ想っているよ結んだ髪の後ろ姿に 君を重ねて振り返る知らぬ誰かに 何度も勘違いした着信があるたび 君の名前を期待したりかっこ悪い毎日ばかり過ぎていくよ忘れられないは言って嘘で 本当は忘れたくないだけ強がりが僕らしさならば もういらない君がいなきゃ 何にも感じない幸せってどう頑張ってみても零れ落ちた涙は すぐに止まらない君はどこにいて 誰とどこにいてどんな服を着て 何して笑ってるんだろう僕はここにいて 今もここにいて君と二人でまた会えると信じているよだから今こうして 僕はまたひとり 君の名前呼んでるこれ以上切なさを抱きしめていけるわけなどないよでもそれしかないんだよ君がいるだけで 輝いて見えたあの頃は 二度と戻ってはこないけど何が起こっても 何を失っても君を愛したこと 決して忘れたくない君がどこにいて 誰とどこにいてどんな夢を見て 何して笑っていてもずっとここにいて 今もここにいて君といつの日か 逢えると信じているよ変わらず想っているよ君だけ想っているよ変わらず想っているよ君だけ想っているよ


翻译

自从你没有说再见就离开的那一天开始 感觉这个城市的景色和颜色都变了样
我们的“想成为你的全部”的约定 还没有实现就变成了回忆
当你独自一个人哭泣的时候 如果我马上飞过去的话 你现在应仍然在我身边
可以的话 还想说一句 我爱你 可是想对你说的思念的话语 你已经听不到了

你在哪里？
和谁在一起？
穿着什么样的衣服 在笑着，做着什么？

我在这里
一直都在这里
相信还会和你在这里相遇


不变的思念
只想着你


想系着发髻的你再次站在我的后方 问我“猜下是谁啊？”
期望着我喊你的名字
每一天 只有我们两个不断地装傻
无法忘记 其实是不想忘记 你不在 便什么幸福的感觉都没有
不管怎样试着努力 也无法停住马上滴落的眼泪


你在哪里？
和谁在一起？
穿着什么样的衣服？ 在笑着， 做着什么？

我在这里
一直都在这里
相信还会和你在这里相遇


如今 我一个人念着你的名字
不应该再这样拥抱忧愁继续下去了 但是 我只能如此
只要有你 就会看起来灿烂 可是已经不会再回到那个时候了

无论发生什么
失去什么
爱过你的事绝对不会忘记

无论你在哪里
和谁在一起
做着什么样的梦
在笑着，做着什么

我仍然在这里
永远在这里
相信会在某一天和你相遇

不便的思念 只想着你
不便的思念 只想着你

Sometimes I wonder..

Sometimes I just wonder...If one day I told you I don't like you anymore..at least act as if I don't..Would it affect you a tiny bit?How.. How would it affect you? Will you be sad for that one second? Or will you feel like a burden has been lifted from your shoulders instead?

If one day I really told you I don't like you anymore..Will you still be the same?Will you still smile the same smile?Will you start smiling truthfully at me..? Not the smile that always looked sorry for me...Will you be my true friend..Instead of always being careful around me..Will you tell me all about her then? The day I tell you I don't like you anymore..Do I get to know about her from then on..Will you tell me everything..truthfully..with all the details?

You see, I've been living in a mist..not knowing of my direction..not knowing of anything really..always lost in it..
What if one day I cleared everything out..Will there be light?Will I find my way again?Or will I still be trapped in darkness..still lost..still not knowing of anything..

Sometimes..I just wonder..1000 messages(or maybe more than that) brought your hearts together..will I be able to do the same too......ha..Nah..
As a person that likes you, your messages always seemed sorry..like you were forced to play nice with me..No matter how hard I try, it doesn't work..I guess my messages can't bring anything closer together..
But as a friend, will all this different? Will it bring our hearts, as friends, closer together?Will we.. be better friends then?

Sometimes I just wonder..Maybe I wonder too much..


Ha..I was just wondering..^^"







Credits to Mr.Nigel Pang for introducing a great movie to me:<5cm/s> that inspired part of this little passage of mine..

Why do you still reach for him...when you know you're supposed to pull back?


I keep telling you "I like you" over and over again.. trying so hard to make it look like a joke but serious at the same time... For months, I've been living like this..living on brief moments when you thought what I said was true...on brief moments of self satisfaction...on small doses of the happiness you bring me...on small doses of the way you looked at me in that brief second...

And when you looked into my eyes..I knew...

You turned your head..Looked past me and laughed...

You still think it's a joke..T.T

R.I.P. Michael Jackson..

TO our one and only Michael Jackson:
Our King of Pop..is gone..forever..
I remember just hearing the news from my driver in the car..I was smiling before I went on the car..I never knew what was coming..The first thing my driver told me was Michael Jackson's dead..What?!At that time I merely couldn't breathe..But then I thought to myself..Sometimes my driver lies or at least gets his information wrong..There's no need to panic too much yet..But when he started talking about the details..I had a premonition about all what he was saying was true..I had a bad feeling..Then when I arrived home..my parents were already watching the news on TV..I really couldn't believe it..at least I didn't want to..this was the most horrible thing I've heard for so long..Screw school results..Screw exam pressure..They looked puny, microscopic to the news of Michael's death..
It was terrible..I ran upstairs immediately..I didn't want anybody to see me shed tears..Michael.worked to hard to die so early..he even had the much anticipated concerts coming up in London..Why now..?A few minutes ago, when you listened to his songs, the guy was still alive..But now when you do, He's no longer here..
If it weren't for him, dancing wouldn't be like what we see today..
Stop thinking about the controversies..Think about what he has done for the world of music..stop and think, ppl(especially you haters).So he did wrong..so what?!
it's not like we're perfect ourselves..till today I still do not want this news to be true..but reality check his body has been moved to the mortuary..
Losing him will definitely be a tragedy people from this century will feel or suffer..Fact:There may be someone like him, but never someone to replace him..
he once said"see you all in July.."but he couldn't make it..it's just so sad..just a few more weeks..if he was still alive, a few weeks from now..his concerts might have been the headlines of every newspaper or magazine..He is a legend.A cool one. and he'll never be forgotten..Bet he's moonwalking in heaven..Ha.. He is our one and only Michael Jackson..

Michael Jackson,
I salute to you..And May you rest in peace.. We Love You!And We Miss You

A die-hard MJ idolater

Holiday

Hey Guys,
How'd you spent your holiday?Mine was meaningful haha
made me more mature over the days..
Musically..erm..about studies and all that..you know what I mean..
Music...Well, I started listening to this guy Yiruma. He's GREAT really!He's a pianist actually..and what else oh yeah started listening to various kind of music..and I actually do like them..so I'm not stuck with Kpop now..I'm diggin' all kinds of music except for Chinese songs unfortunately~.~..Sorry guyz:D
But whatever..yeah I know what y'all thinking..I didn't study during the holidays..True True..but hey I will eventually..Saw the movie"Devil Wears Prada" twice, felt it was inspirational..
Well, what else..got a hair cut..trying to think what to bring for RYLA..trying to figure out how the art project works(by the way I hate you for it Lo)
and I might just be getting over something that I haven't got over for app.3 months and 24 days..
I hope all of you had a grand holiday too..Another week to school though..bummer..Cheers to everyone!

Don't Forget by Demi Lovato

Did you forget That I was even alive?
Did you forget Everything we ever had?
Did you forget? Did you forget About me?

Did you regret Ever standing by my side?
Did you forget We were feeling inside ?
Now I'm left to forget About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess This is where we have to stand
Did you regret Ever holding my hand?
Never again Please don't forget Don't forget

We had it all We were just about to fall
Even more in love Than we were before
I won't forget I won't forget About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it At all

And at last All the pictures have been burned
And all the past Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget I won't forget us
But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten About us

Stressful me~

Hello children!!
As you see I am back..back from the scary world called reality..
Aiiya you know what I've been up to lately, know what have I been doing lately..
Installation just over, art homework not done, and thanks to that 林斯民no sleep for 2 consecutive days..now got exams some more..
aiiya..ren2 sheng1 xin1 ku3 a..
anyways I've decided to escape for just 5 minutes into my little virtual world called blogs.I'll be busy after this as well, just can't wait for holidays!!Ryla!!
Oh ya ~.~

Happy Teachers Day....=.=".....yipee......=.="""

Exam dayz~~

hello!!haiz been very busy lately (but still have time to type my blog muahahha)so anyway
life's hard with exams=.= especially if you're a science stream student..so many subjects so little time..sometimes I just admire maroon class students..8.30 am can go home already-.-..

Sandra's Latest Results:
SPM Math:Okay la
Add Math:Fail
Chinese Compo:Dunno whether got the point right or not T _T
Engish Compo:No prob de gua
Malay Compo:Hopefully no prob..
English Compre:Okay also
SPM Bio:=.=not sure bout it
UEC Bio:Okay ba :)
SPM Physics:Dunno leh
SPM Chemistry:Dunno la
UEC Physics: !FAIL!
ux=sin (dita thingy)
uy=cos(dita thingy) proven!
Would be a miracle if I pass at all=.=
Moral:Dunno what was I writing
Sejarah:Don't even understand the questions
IT:It's in Chinese!!How should I freaking memorize all of that?!

Okay thats all. now left with malay chinese UEC Chemistry and UEC maths!
Wish me luck>< Oh ya, wish you guys luck too..!
Two more days!
I'll be back by then! MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!
WAKAKKAKAKAKAKKAKA!

Untitled

你身边的她。。我总是看不清。。
是因为你把她隐瞒得很好吗？还是因为我自己肯本不想看得清..？

Lucky (Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Calliat)

Do you hear me,I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

*Love this song!

Stupidity Kills..

*(Still at the starting point..)

I had thoughts in the rain.
Questions like "Why am I here?", "Why am I wet?", "What am I doing?", "Why am I doing this?", "Who am I doing this for?", "Why do I not see you?", "Why are you not here?"..
I thought you were going to be here.. I really thought so..

Why did I think you were gonna be here..One word describes all.."Stupidity"..
Stupidity made me follow you that day..
Stupidity made me hurt myself picking up the memories..
Stupidity made me keep the memories..
Stupidity made me stand in the rain..
Stupidity made me wait for you..
Stupidity made me think you were gonna be here..

This nightmare has indeen not yet ended..But it all started with my ownself's stupidity..
I'm sorry..but I really did blame you some time ago..but now I know..
It wasn't you who killed me..It was my stupidity that did..

"Stupidity Kills! Stupidity Kills..Sandra!..Wake up!"
Ha..
I still didn't let go of the box.

Losing to a Box of Memories

I turned back after picking every piece of memory up..walking the trail once more..making sure I did not leave any behind..Whew..Finally a breath of fresh air..

With the memories in my arms, I arrived at the starting point of all this..
This point brings back memories.. remembering how everything came together..remembering how sudden it appeared in my life..*sigh

I found a box.just big enough to fit everything in..
I closed it tight..so tight I bet even the memories are breathless..
Good, keep it that way..I don't want them to fade away..
Making one last check in case of any leaks..I picked the box up and walked outside..

I stood there..Like an idiot you may say..waiting..waiting..waiting..

Then it started to rain, I still stood there, again like an idiot....Waiting.
I was cold but I stood there..I was shivering but I stood there..

The rain stopped and there was the sun again..
I felt warm on the outside but still, there were chills in my heart..
I waited, again like an idiot under the sun..I waited..

It started to rain again, and it stopped, it rained, it stopped, it rained and it stopped..over and over the weather went on for days..and where was I?
Still there..Waiting..

Did I cry?Or were they just raindrops....
This chill in my heart was getting stronger day by day..I started to shiver under the sun..
Was it me or was it the weather?Guess all the rain and sun has started to get to me..I started going mad..
I cried in the rain..and shivered when it's sunny..Yup..must be mad..
I wait.. I waited for nothing..No no..I waited for you..hmph..Definitely mad..

Disappointed, I held the box tighter as it seemed like the only light in life at that point..
I'm losing myself..Ha..Can you believe it..? I'm losing myself to a box of memories that I actually believed in replaying once more..

What..What ever was I waiting for..?

Memories of Collecting Pass Memories

One piece, two pieces, three pieces and so on..

Counting the memories of the past as I walked this incomplete trail once more..

When the trail finally stopped dead.. my heart dropped dead..

My hands now covered in blood as every piece of memory either pricked or pierced me whole..both my hands and my heart..

The trail was too short a distance..At this point, I cried..

Has it all ended in these few pieces of memories?

Has it been so short a time?

Will you ever come back just to guide me through this nightmare you've created?

Will you ever come back and notice that all the broken memories are gone?

So many memories..but it only took me less than a day's time to finish looking back on..

Was this at all that worthy?


Ask me:

Do I regret having followed you in here?
Do I regret getting myself into a situation like this?
Do I regret keeping the memories even though they hurt me?
Do I regret letting myself bleed upon these pass memories?
Do I regret my endless love for you?

No, I don't..I really don't..and for the last question, I never did..





P/S: You can break my heart not once not twice but a thousand times and it'll still go back to its original shape one day..so don't worry about me..
I will find my way out of here..will find my way out with a whole new set of memories..Happy ones of course..to lead the way..
I'll leave this place..never to come back..one day I will..and one day I will..without you..

You don't know (II) Broken memories..

I give up! I give up!
Stop..I beg you..stop! You couldn't hear me..


I choose and I've chosen..


..I ran towards you once more..


I picked them up..
Every piece of memory felt like broken glass.. so fragile but yet they may hurt you..
Clutching each and every piece of memory in my arms..
I started to bleed..I started to cry..

I worry.. worry I won't be able to chase up..
I kept on running.. trying to find a sign of you..not letting go of the memories in my arms..


But in the end..you're gone..you left..
You led me in here and left me once again..
Leaving everything behind.. waiting for me to hurt myself picking them up..

And from that day, I was lost..
Lost between you and a whole trail of broken memories..

Left alone..Hurt..I cried..
And yet..




You still don't know..




(Obviously I'm talking about someone..)

You don't know (I)..Memory trail..

You don't know..
How my eyes get teary every time I look back at you..
You don't know..
How my heart hurts every time I set my eyes on you..

But yet you continue to move on..
You're moving forward..drifting away..never looking back..
Leaving you clueless of what's happening over here..
Leaving me staring at your back thats drifting further and further away..
Leaving me reminiscing of what's left of you..

You continue to move on..
You leave just like how Hansel and Gretel did..leaving behind a trail..Instead of pebbles you left a trail of memories..throwing them away at every step you make..
You're leaving a trail, a track for me to follow..

I stand before this trail, walking back and forth at its presence..thinking whether I should follow on..thinking whether I should follow you into this never ending forest..thinking whether I should pick the memories up and keep them..I'm still so reluctant to let go..

One piece..Two pieces..Three pieces of memories dropping off from your arms..One by one, they fall..
*Thum Thum..
I can feel my heart as though being caned everytime they hit the ground..Once, twice, three times..
Stop..Stop throwing them away..


To be continued..

My Sixteenth Valentine's Day

Hello everyone!! First wanna wish you guys Happy Valentine's ya!!
haha
my title says my 16th but dunno la when we were still young also dunno what's tht=.=
ok don care la o.O
this year a we brought cake and sparkling champagne to school leh haha so good ho!!eat until fat lu.. we all ate..aiiya ah lo first time reject food!(next day all newspapers headlines lu!) ha!
today's also not only valentine jek got ppl's birthday, name: choklaton. haha HApPY BIrtHDay!!
Eat xia eat xia the cake leh..then notice ho the cake quite big de=.= cant finish.. so gave it to some more special friends haha fun ones la of course ahha yes lin li min i'm talking bout you!
then finish drinking liao we used the bottle to play truth or dare aiiya.. actually now i regret why i didnt pick dare haiz..don care la history meh just leave it to be history..
after playing leh before go home we had a friendship hug haha..cant imagine how we'll be like 10 years from now..will we still be friends by then??ha!this is a must la of course!


After tht, have to come back school again..interact X games!!haha!!play till okok lo not specially fun but okay..and ooooohhh..i LLLLLOOOOOOVVVVEEEE playing with water oh yes i do!!

after we finished we went to change and clean up..after all the blabbering by the ppl in front(no offence =>)we went to eat and drink. yummy! milo taste so damn good. been running with an empty stomach whole day(I'm so sorry my always full tummy).finally FOOD!! i went to take bread to feed my bobbies(the tortoises and fishes in the pond, due to the lack of creativity, I named them Bobby 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,Bobby 9=Samantha;p) afterwards. at least i think there were 8 of them in the pond=.= feed xia feed xia never thought bobby 1 would be so full that it spit out some bread in the end..bad bobby..polluting the pond..haiz..have to teach them the manners of eating(for aquatic animals living in a pond edition) next time haha!!

went back home eat KFC..then went to talk with my sis..talk whole night cause she's going to australia tomorrow * sob sob..

today's feelings: hmm..i can say tht beer tastes sweeter than today

Sports Day Journal 2..Muahaha!

This morning a, when i just woke up only ho, straight away feel dao back pain a, waist pain a, shoulder pain lagi..Adui sakitnya! So very the painful leh!

ok la then meh go school lo. When I reach school ho then notice today weather not bad jek..haha..then meh go padang lo..go on the Kan Tai there then notice only junior students can sit=.= ceh
apalah ni?! where got like tht de huh? wan us suffer like tht!then we meh go find place to sit/stand lo..in the end end up at the car park there..aii..so cham a.. but nvm! today damn high de!

Walao me and Lin li min a haiz went crazy today! Keep on singing the same old Sharon theme song to help her add oil..not bad ho.. quite fun also de but so the hot la!

okay wait serious now..

After watching a few matches we got bored so we started to talk..Talk talk talk..get high see match..talk again get high see match over and over and over and over and over again..then the cassandra a haiz..(I wanted to report her to the teacher de but see her as a friend I changed my mind)..She..PLUCK MOST OF THE FLOWERS TO MAKE HER WEIRD NECKLACES AND BRACELETS eh! sometimes really dissapointed in her la..then i saw sammi run leh so serious her face fuiyo! breathe breathe breathe run run run so funny ha!(no la Kidding)^^ then saw sim li ting aiiya so cham her she fainted leh..wanted to go save her like super hero de but nvm la couldnt jump over the bush..XD

then the chang ching yi meh run also. wa !fast wer good job
ah lo(D.A) also. in the end still fling hands one
ew also run
let me see
oh ya and got the open race i wanted to join but still..couldnt jump over the tall and endless bush..Haiz..

see how hard life is with a bush in front of you..
i think thats it gua..oh ya shoes and mushy mud dont go well together but bare feet do haha!
after tht meh go home lu!

P/S:Oh ya, I got trophy leh..silver de leh..for tug of war..go pull a rope get trophy not bad jek ;)
thats all for today muahhahaha! TTFN TaTa For Now!

Sports Day Journal 1..Wakaka!

Wei, you guyz sports day fun a not huh?
haha..
that cassandra a..come to school so late make ppl think she didnt come =.=" haiz so lazy..
hmm..really wan pei fu xia those ppl marching in the rain de..show your stuff haha
wowow!
our class got lots of ppl get prize de wer..
ah lo racing got silver and bronze!!(tomorrow get gold de lu)
sammi got bronze leh(know you won run last de la!)
er
michelle leh so kuat haha, blue house lose to them o haiz in tug o war..
wonder who else got prize.. ew for sure got right?
haiz..two matches of tug o war already make my hand and waist so soar lo Ngiao~
(Sandra..getting old lo ha!)
don wanna senka or anything but i thought i played a very big part in the match today :p( senka)
don mind me la just can senka this only didnt participate in anything else haha
not bad la..whole day sitting down also quite boring de but had fun la in the mud!ha i liked it so mushy!
Congrats to our winners!!

Muahaha..to be continued..

谎言

心。。我该感谢你吗？

感谢你这么久以来从不对我说谎。。总是在告诉我真相。。

可是，这次，就当我求你好了，这次能够不告诉我真相吗？

这次我需要的却是你的欺骗。。让我日子好过一点。。



告诉我：我不喜欢他。
告诉我：我不在乎他。

就这么一次。。

当他在我面前时，你就别跳动加速，让我难堪。

当他对我好时，你也别停顿几拍，让我顿时不知所措。

我要恢复以前，就像以前那样，我就是最幸福的。。

心。。只要你肯听话，我们会渡过难关的。。

就把这场暗恋当成一场重重的感冒而已，让它慢慢地复原。。

Valentine's Day~~~~~~~~~

Okay since I already wrote so much lovey dovey stuff haha
now it's time for fun stuff!
Chinese New Year!!next is Valentines Day!!you guys ready??
for those who are waiting to confess, be brave on that day..去拼了！Good Luck!!^^
for those who are already in love, I wish you the best!
Valentines Day: A pretty day filled with roses, champagne, pink heart-shaped balloons..hmm..and what else??

Lots and Lots of LOVE haha..

To all my friends, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!
Muackxx~~

Love,
Sandra

心语。。

我。。为什么会喜欢上你。。?
我。。为什么会爱上了你。。?

一起又玩又闹了那么久。。到最后，你还不是选了另一条路。。让我一个人落寞地在一个角落。。
你，因为有了她而忽视了我。。
自己有时还会假装看不见在亲密的你们。。哼。。很傻，对吧？哈。。

说了不再嫉妒，说了不再在乎。。
说了要祝福你们。。
说了要放手，决定要放开一切。。可是为什么。。为什么我总会在你们的身后徘徊。。
我还是办不到。。
为什么对你不舍。。有时想把你们隔离得越远越好。。忍不住想要打扰你们。。
明知道这样做很坏，我也不过是在白费力气而已。。你以为我不想放弃这没出息的爱吗？
但我却忘不了。。忘不了。。

我。。究竟该往何处去才好。。我在绝望里总是看不见答案。。

整天都这么装下去，你以为我想吗？


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Mirotic 魔咒(Mandarin Version)

那雾 那烟 那迷 那幻 那光 那灯 好诱惑
你靠近我旋转着用你念力拥抱我
傻傻在等待会失败woowoo~~
那近 那远 那日 那夜 那城 那断掉的梦
都不要来纠缠我 现在我是主人翁 这里都是爱 让你爱 wowo

*你要我做主 我要你臣服 high到最深处 再也不孤独
I got you under my skin
你要我做主 我要你臣服 High到最深处 完美的演出
I got you under my skin

我让你醉 我让你疯 我让你中了魔咒 你的血液 你的呼吸 充满我费洛蒙
这是不是爱让你猜hoho
怎样吻能不能间断 有了我就会足够 步入你的规则 搅乱你的心头
什么都别再说 贴着我 - - hoho
*你要我做主 我要你臣服 high到最深处 再也不孤独
I got you under my skin
你要我做主 我要你臣服 High到最深处 完美的演出
I get you under my skin

Rap Part
I love it when you got no shame ！ do damn thing so insane
you love it when i play your game！ work that brain i'm in your aim！ yeah i'm in your aim！
you know you got it！Yeah


爱的烟火瞬间爆发出烟的寂寞(love this part^^)我的魔咒要你听从一刻不思索
I got you under my skin
现在以后把你的心全部交给我 别再犯错我就是你唯一的选择 I got you under my skin
*你要我做主 我要你臣服 high到最深处 再也不孤独 I got you under my skin
你要我做主 我要你臣服 High到最深处 完美的演出 I got you under my skin

一个人。。

“老伯伯，你怎么会一个人在这儿?"

“噢，想出来散散心吗。”

“可是，你为什么会是一个人的呢？”

“哎，没了老伴，当然一个人啦。。！”

“老伯伯，啊，老伯伯，你这样一个人的，孤不孤单啊？”

“Hoho..孤单啊。。当然孤单。。!"

“那么，老伯伯，一个人的感觉，还会怎样的啊？”

“嗯..一个人的感觉。。很悲伤，还加一点痛痛的。。”

“痛？是哪里痛啊？”

“哈。。当然是心痛啊！”

“心痛？心会痛吗？心为什么会痛呢？”

“哈哈。。年轻人啊，年轻人。。等你有了爱情你就会明白。。哈哈。。”



一个人会孤单。。会寂寞。。

一个人会悲伤。。会心痛。。

哼。。这一点我懂。。而且比谁都还懂。。




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L.O.V.E. ..ha..

My life isn't easy with you
My life also isn't any easier without you..
What do you want me to do..

Sometimes, I just wish you would just smile at me as if 'she' were in front of you..
At least it wouldn't hurt so much..

why did I ever fall in love with you?

Blogging?!

I seriously dunno what to do with this blog thingy o.O..
i wanna follow blogs and how do I do tht??I think i clicked something turns out I'm following my own blog=.=
i wanna follow other ppl's blog HELP!!

Chinese New Year!!Dong dorong dong chang

It's CNY guys!!Having fun..??
Me? I had lots of fun~~went on a trip!!was great!!
Details:
went to China-Guangzhou
was cold
good food
went to the amusement park
watched a damn fine circus!
received lots of angpaus
and
had lots of fun with cousins and i mean lots!
so,how'd you spend your CNY holidays? ha!
ive already sent Cny wishes out before the ones with heart replied the ones that didnt(terence:p)i just dunno wat to say anymore so don really care..
oh ya this is my very first post as you can see
just signed up for this funny thing(shout out to friends!)=.=
so forgive me still a noob at these things wonder how you guys make the shiny blingy thing with your blog i want tht!!
ppl who already have blogs=HAPPY BLOGGING!!