If it was because of a scar in your heart that caused you to change... I accept it
If it was because someone hurt you so badly that caused you to change...I accept it
If it was because of this, you start to change to who you are today...I accept it
'Cause I'm your friend and I'm supposed to be there for you and if you were looking for some source to heal this pain...I'll be there...because I'm your friend and if this was how it was going to be...I won't blame you cause you were hurt too. I would forgive you and understand you...I would be there for you...even though it means hurting myself :')

Because...well, I am your friend. Haha~ and probably because I can get over it...and will get over it haha again~as long if it mends that heart of yours...anything will be fine with me...'Cause...
I'm your friend :)

Haha~

No matter how many times one goes through a heartbreak... never can she get used to it...nor can she ignore it...and in the end it still hurts like crap...

A forgiveness that never came...

Dear you,



Hey! It has been 3 months now... How are you? I just wanna know whether you're doing OK in your homework. Or are you getting enough help that you need... I know I wasn't the best help you had... I couldn't finish what I've started...I've never finished what I've started... So you probably think I'm quite worthless to begin with well, erm...I'm sorry...

I just wanna know how have you been because I know how you are and you're always not tellin anyone stuff...I always wanted to be the one you would tell stuff to...Let's just say I was almost there =( OK... getting a little personal...=.=



Well, there's just so much things I wanna know...Are your lifetime dreams still the same? Do you still want to achieve the things you once told me about? One of the reasons I still have mine cause you wanna be one too and you're not giving up and maybe one day we can be I dunno== friends?=.= I just wanna ask so many things but I dunno where to start...cause I don't even know how our friendship sort of partially ended...I don't know what I wanna know...I wanna know if you've forgiven me...I wanna know if you've changed...I wanna know...well I dunno... :)

Haha anyway, it's been 3 months so...I won't blame you if you don't want to =.=



anyway...I'm fine here...I know you don't wanna know..er...You should've came too! You should come this Septemeber! Haha hopefully you will...erm...

what else?



Just update me on things happening k?

cause I wanna know and I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry...





Sandra



It's not that I didn't care...It's because well I dunno I was probably a bitch after I found another source of happiness... but I couldn't help it (lookin for excuses for myself=.=Well now I've got my 报应 haha...) well I really thought I couldnt cause I didnt know what to do next...I gave up hope I didnt know what my next step should be I was expecting a forgiveness one day..anyday...but it never came...I'm sorry but I really care and as a friend I wanna know...



I'm typin it on my blog for a reason... haha cause I know...that no matter where I type it...There wouldn't be a reply...

Forgive me? =.= haiz 算了啦。。。

I once thought about loads of things how things changed the past few months and that so many conflicts going on...How am I supposed to solve everything blah blah blah well it's a 38 persons basic instincts I guess haha...then I notice that I have sooo many issues myself...Haha...CHeers people~! I once thought I've learnt a lot of life lessons and stuff but I just found out that there are still so many more...and maybe sometimes they're just the same ones repeating themselves over and over again...But even if it does, it still doesn't make it any easier trying to get through them...all over again...especially if it's concerning our loved ones...And I have so many issues now...I'm freakin out=.=

Spending less time on Facebook because it shows me things that I don't wanna see...
Spending less time on Skype because people keep telling me things that I don't wanna hear...

I'm halfway across the world struggling...That's why I'm keeping myself busy
because I know it's just me...

Spending less time on things that make me feel closer to you...because the truth is...You're so far away...

I never knew... I never guessed that you would go around doing the same thing to other girls...
I admit it was me... I never liked you or maybe I was just about to...again but I dunno... I just know that i feel like crap now...In fact, I feel worse than that...