Exam dayz~~

hello!!haiz been very busy lately (but still have time to type my blog muahahha)so anyway
life's hard with exams=.= especially if you're a science stream student..so many subjects so little time..sometimes I just admire maroon class students..8.30 am can go home already-.-..

Sandra's Latest Results:
SPM Math:Okay la
Add Math:Fail
Chinese Compo:Dunno whether got the point right or not T _T
Engish Compo:No prob de gua
Malay Compo:Hopefully no prob..
English Compre:Okay also
SPM Bio:=.=not sure bout it
UEC Bio:Okay ba :)
SPM Physics:Dunno leh
SPM Chemistry:Dunno la
UEC Physics: !FAIL!
ux=sin (dita thingy)
uy=cos(dita thingy) proven!
Would be a miracle if I pass at all=.=
Moral:Dunno what was I writing
Sejarah:Don't even understand the questions
IT:It's in Chinese!!How should I freaking memorize all of that?!

Okay thats all. now left with malay chinese UEC Chemistry and UEC maths!
Wish me luck>< Oh ya, wish you guys luck too..!
Two more days!
I'll be back by then! MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!
WAKAKKAKAKAKAKKAKA!

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你身边的她。。我总是看不清。。
是因为你把她隐瞒得很好吗？还是因为我自己肯本不想看得清..？

Lucky (Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Calliat)

Do you hear me,I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

*Love this song!

Stupidity Kills..

*(Still at the starting point..)

I had thoughts in the rain.
Questions like "Why am I here?", "Why am I wet?", "What am I doing?", "Why am I doing this?", "Who am I doing this for?", "Why do I not see you?", "Why are you not here?"..
I thought you were going to be here.. I really thought so..

Why did I think you were gonna be here..One word describes all.."Stupidity"..
Stupidity made me follow you that day..
Stupidity made me hurt myself picking up the memories..
Stupidity made me keep the memories..
Stupidity made me stand in the rain..
Stupidity made me wait for you..
Stupidity made me think you were gonna be here..

This nightmare has indeen not yet ended..But it all started with my ownself's stupidity..
I'm sorry..but I really did blame you some time ago..but now I know..
It wasn't you who killed me..It was my stupidity that did..

"Stupidity Kills! Stupidity Kills..Sandra!..Wake up!"
Ha..
I still didn't let go of the box.

Losing to a Box of Memories

I turned back after picking every piece of memory up..walking the trail once more..making sure I did not leave any behind..Whew..Finally a breath of fresh air..

With the memories in my arms, I arrived at the starting point of all this..
This point brings back memories.. remembering how everything came together..remembering how sudden it appeared in my life..*sigh

I found a box.just big enough to fit everything in..
I closed it tight..so tight I bet even the memories are breathless..
Good, keep it that way..I don't want them to fade away..
Making one last check in case of any leaks..I picked the box up and walked outside..

I stood there..Like an idiot you may say..waiting..waiting..waiting..

Then it started to rain, I still stood there, again like an idiot....Waiting.
I was cold but I stood there..I was shivering but I stood there..

The rain stopped and there was the sun again..
I felt warm on the outside but still, there were chills in my heart..
I waited, again like an idiot under the sun..I waited..

It started to rain again, and it stopped, it rained, it stopped, it rained and it stopped..over and over the weather went on for days..and where was I?
Still there..Waiting..

Did I cry?Or were they just raindrops....
This chill in my heart was getting stronger day by day..I started to shiver under the sun..
Was it me or was it the weather?Guess all the rain and sun has started to get to me..I started going mad..
I cried in the rain..and shivered when it's sunny..Yup..must be mad..
I wait.. I waited for nothing..No no..I waited for you..hmph..Definitely mad..

Disappointed, I held the box tighter as it seemed like the only light in life at that point..
I'm losing myself..Ha..Can you believe it..? I'm losing myself to a box of memories that I actually believed in replaying once more..

What..What ever was I waiting for..?

Memories of Collecting Pass Memories

One piece, two pieces, three pieces and so on..

Counting the memories of the past as I walked this incomplete trail once more..

When the trail finally stopped dead.. my heart dropped dead..

My hands now covered in blood as every piece of memory either pricked or pierced me whole..both my hands and my heart..

The trail was too short a distance..At this point, I cried..

Has it all ended in these few pieces of memories?

Has it been so short a time?

Will you ever come back just to guide me through this nightmare you've created?

Will you ever come back and notice that all the broken memories are gone?

So many memories..but it only took me less than a day's time to finish looking back on..

Was this at all that worthy?


Ask me:

Do I regret having followed you in here?
Do I regret getting myself into a situation like this?
Do I regret keeping the memories even though they hurt me?
Do I regret letting myself bleed upon these pass memories?
Do I regret my endless love for you?

No, I don't..I really don't..and for the last question, I never did..





P/S: You can break my heart not once not twice but a thousand times and it'll still go back to its original shape one day..so don't worry about me..
I will find my way out of here..will find my way out with a whole new set of memories..Happy ones of course..to lead the way..
I'll leave this place..never to come back..one day I will..and one day I will..without you..

You don't know (II) Broken memories..

I give up! I give up!
Stop..I beg you..stop! You couldn't hear me..


I choose and I've chosen..


..I ran towards you once more..


I picked them up..
Every piece of memory felt like broken glass.. so fragile but yet they may hurt you..
Clutching each and every piece of memory in my arms..
I started to bleed..I started to cry..

I worry.. worry I won't be able to chase up..
I kept on running.. trying to find a sign of you..not letting go of the memories in my arms..


But in the end..you're gone..you left..
You led me in here and left me once again..
Leaving everything behind.. waiting for me to hurt myself picking them up..

And from that day, I was lost..
Lost between you and a whole trail of broken memories..

Left alone..Hurt..I cried..
And yet..




You still don't know..




(Obviously I'm talking about someone..)