I'm sorry that I changed my pace..I don't know why I did it..Maybe it's because I needed some space..
In Love, Hearts were never meant to race..
And now I can't even reach your face..

(part of CB's lyrics)

你的到来让我的人生变得多么地快乐，你的离去却留下了无比的悲哀。。

正常。


You brought to my life..not just joy..but a warmth I have yet to feel..if it weren't for you..I have never felt so alive before..my heart that was once destined to be frozen somehow started pumping normally again..it was great, really..


But then you left..during my absence..leaving nothing..no regret..no guilt..I guess it was just meant to be..My world's back to the old days now..cold and emotionless..

I'm sorry..for whatever I did wrong..I should have seen the signs you were trying to show me that you were gonna leave me..
I'm sorry for whatever I did not do right..I should have known you better..

There are a tons of thing I wanted to do with you..I was thinking them all out..planning every move carefully..but I can't do that anymore..

I'm sorry, I'm really really... sorry....

But I wanna thank you too..for leaving me before I looked and treated you as a "habit", before I took you for granted..(don't get me wrong, it hurts..it really does..but at least the scar would heal without too much pain and guilt) I know I really cared for you instead of just pretending to..I really did..at least I know I loved you..At least I won't feel too sorry or bad about things..I just hope you know that I really really did love you..I never thought you would leave so quick..so forgive me..cause I too didn't want things to end this way..I don't know why you left..but I just hope you don't regret too much as me being your last owner..

May you rest in peace..Chester..
We miss you..and we love you forever and ever..Promise..
although we missed out on a lot of things, at least, this is the one,last promise I can keep..It's the best I can do..

I'm sorry..


Dedicated to my bunny Chester who left me so suddenly during my absence..

Stand By You by 东方神起

歌词

君がさよならを告げずに 出て行ったあの日からこの街の景色や匂いが 変わった気がするよ君のすべてになりたくて 交わした約束も果たされないまま 思い出に変わってしまうひとりきりで君が泣いたあの時 すぐに飛んで行けば今もまだ君は 僕の横にいてくれた?できるならばもう一度言いたかった 大好きって君への思いを溢れ出した言葉も 今は届かない君はどこにいて 誰とどこにいてどんな服を着て 何して笑ってるんだろう僕はここにいて 今もここにいて君と二人でまた会えると信じているよ変わらず想っているよ君だけ想っているよ結んだ髪の後ろ姿に 君を重ねて振り返る知らぬ誰かに 何度も勘違いした着信があるたび 君の名前を期待したりかっこ悪い毎日ばかり過ぎていくよ忘れられないは言って嘘で 本当は忘れたくないだけ強がりが僕らしさならば もういらない君がいなきゃ 何にも感じない幸せってどう頑張ってみても零れ落ちた涙は すぐに止まらない君はどこにいて 誰とどこにいてどんな服を着て 何して笑ってるんだろう僕はここにいて 今もここにいて君と二人でまた会えると信じているよだから今こうして 僕はまたひとり 君の名前呼んでるこれ以上切なさを抱きしめていけるわけなどないよでもそれしかないんだよ君がいるだけで 輝いて見えたあの頃は 二度と戻ってはこないけど何が起こっても 何を失っても君を愛したこと 決して忘れたくない君がどこにいて 誰とどこにいてどんな夢を見て 何して笑っていてもずっとここにいて 今もここにいて君といつの日か 逢えると信じているよ変わらず想っているよ君だけ想っているよ変わらず想っているよ君だけ想っているよ


翻译

自从你没有说再见就离开的那一天开始 感觉这个城市的景色和颜色都变了样
我们的“想成为你的全部”的约定 还没有实现就变成了回忆
当你独自一个人哭泣的时候 如果我马上飞过去的话 你现在应仍然在我身边
可以的话 还想说一句 我爱你 可是想对你说的思念的话语 你已经听不到了

你在哪里？
和谁在一起？
穿着什么样的衣服 在笑着，做着什么？

我在这里
一直都在这里
相信还会和你在这里相遇


不变的思念
只想着你


想系着发髻的你再次站在我的后方 问我“猜下是谁啊？”
期望着我喊你的名字
每一天 只有我们两个不断地装傻
无法忘记 其实是不想忘记 你不在 便什么幸福的感觉都没有
不管怎样试着努力 也无法停住马上滴落的眼泪


你在哪里？
和谁在一起？
穿着什么样的衣服？ 在笑着， 做着什么？

我在这里
一直都在这里
相信还会和你在这里相遇


如今 我一个人念着你的名字
不应该再这样拥抱忧愁继续下去了 但是 我只能如此
只要有你 就会看起来灿烂 可是已经不会再回到那个时候了

无论发生什么
失去什么
爱过你的事绝对不会忘记

无论你在哪里
和谁在一起
做着什么样的梦
在笑着，做着什么

我仍然在这里
永远在这里
相信会在某一天和你相遇

不便的思念 只想着你
不便的思念 只想着你

Sometimes I wonder..

Sometimes I just wonder...If one day I told you I don't like you anymore..at least act as if I don't..Would it affect you a tiny bit?How.. How would it affect you? Will you be sad for that one second? Or will you feel like a burden has been lifted from your shoulders instead?

If one day I really told you I don't like you anymore..Will you still be the same?Will you still smile the same smile?Will you start smiling truthfully at me..? Not the smile that always looked sorry for me...Will you be my true friend..Instead of always being careful around me..Will you tell me all about her then? The day I tell you I don't like you anymore..Do I get to know about her from then on..Will you tell me everything..truthfully..with all the details?

You see, I've been living in a mist..not knowing of my direction..not knowing of anything really..always lost in it..
What if one day I cleared everything out..Will there be light?Will I find my way again?Or will I still be trapped in darkness..still lost..still not knowing of anything..

Sometimes..I just wonder..1000 messages(or maybe more than that) brought your hearts together..will I be able to do the same too......ha..Nah..
As a person that likes you, your messages always seemed sorry..like you were forced to play nice with me..No matter how hard I try, it doesn't work..I guess my messages can't bring anything closer together..
But as a friend, will all this different? Will it bring our hearts, as friends, closer together?Will we.. be better friends then?

Sometimes I just wonder..Maybe I wonder too much..


Ha..I was just wondering..^^"







Credits to Mr.Nigel Pang for introducing a great movie to me:<5cm/s> that inspired part of this little passage of mine..

Why do you still reach for him...when you know you're supposed to pull back?


I keep telling you "I like you" over and over again.. trying so hard to make it look like a joke but serious at the same time... For months, I've been living like this..living on brief moments when you thought what I said was true...on brief moments of self satisfaction...on small doses of the happiness you bring me...on small doses of the way you looked at me in that brief second...

And when you looked into my eyes..I knew...

You turned your head..Looked past me and laughed...

You still think it's a joke..T.T

R.I.P. Michael Jackson..

TO our one and only Michael Jackson:
Our King of Pop..is gone..forever..
I remember just hearing the news from my driver in the car..I was smiling before I went on the car..I never knew what was coming..The first thing my driver told me was Michael Jackson's dead..What?!At that time I merely couldn't breathe..But then I thought to myself..Sometimes my driver lies or at least gets his information wrong..There's no need to panic too much yet..But when he started talking about the details..I had a premonition about all what he was saying was true..I had a bad feeling..Then when I arrived home..my parents were already watching the news on TV..I really couldn't believe it..at least I didn't want to..this was the most horrible thing I've heard for so long..Screw school results..Screw exam pressure..They looked puny, microscopic to the news of Michael's death..
It was terrible..I ran upstairs immediately..I didn't want anybody to see me shed tears..Michael.worked to hard to die so early..he even had the much anticipated concerts coming up in London..Why now..?A few minutes ago, when you listened to his songs, the guy was still alive..But now when you do, He's no longer here..
If it weren't for him, dancing wouldn't be like what we see today..
Stop thinking about the controversies..Think about what he has done for the world of music..stop and think, ppl(especially you haters).So he did wrong..so what?!
it's not like we're perfect ourselves..till today I still do not want this news to be true..but reality check his body has been moved to the mortuary..
Losing him will definitely be a tragedy people from this century will feel or suffer..Fact:There may be someone like him, but never someone to replace him..
he once said"see you all in July.."but he couldn't make it..it's just so sad..just a few more weeks..if he was still alive, a few weeks from now..his concerts might have been the headlines of every newspaper or magazine..He is a legend.A cool one. and he'll never be forgotten..Bet he's moonwalking in heaven..Ha.. He is our one and only Michael Jackson..

Michael Jackson,
I salute to you..And May you rest in peace.. We Love You!And We Miss You

A die-hard MJ idolater

Holiday

Hey Guys,
How'd you spent your holiday?Mine was meaningful haha
made me more mature over the days..
Musically..erm..about studies and all that..you know what I mean..
Music...Well, I started listening to this guy Yiruma. He's GREAT really!He's a pianist actually..and what else oh yeah started listening to various kind of music..and I actually do like them..so I'm not stuck with Kpop now..I'm diggin' all kinds of music except for Chinese songs unfortunately~.~..Sorry guyz:D
But whatever..yeah I know what y'all thinking..I didn't study during the holidays..True True..but hey I will eventually..Saw the movie"Devil Wears Prada" twice, felt it was inspirational..
Well, what else..got a hair cut..trying to think what to bring for RYLA..trying to figure out how the art project works(by the way I hate you for it Lo)
and I might just be getting over something that I haven't got over for app.3 months and 24 days..
I hope all of you had a grand holiday too..Another week to school though..bummer..Cheers to everyone!