Going Back IN another 2 weeks or so.. sigh~

I still remember coming back less than two months ago.
I still remember leaving about 8 months ago.
Nothing emotional. But I like my life here.
Stress-free + Multiple Sleep-ins + Multiple unnecessary naps + Going Out with friends regardless

Life back there is so much more different.
Got my AS results few days back and that's just only the beginning of this difficult (but yet worth it) journey.
Remembering the times back when we were young and care free.

I wish everyone a Super BRIGHT future where our dreams and reality would be simultaneous in our lives. Where we would embrace our jobs and lives and loved ones. Constantly working hard for a better tomorrow. We would be fully aware that the future is the key and never the past.

Then one day, we might meet on a street and notice that the memories we had a long time ago when we were still young are now nothing but a blur image and past. They would no longer hold a significance because it would all seem too far away. Then we would smile and nod, not stopping for this moment, not stopping for a word or two. We'll be busy and would be in a rush for something else more important. You might be walking with another man or woman or a group of friends. They would ask you:" Who's that?" and all you say is:" An old friend." You know your 11.30 meeting would not wait for you because you want to have a coffee with that old friend of yours. Because you know your job no longer relies or depend on others like how we could study together once upon a time. Because you know that Time does not stop ticking away, second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour and day by day. It has been years since we've met each other and stopping now would no longer be important to you. We smile once more (apologetically) and walk away, not knowing when we would be lucky enough to have such a coincidence again. And yet it does not matter, you take out your notes for your meeting and start rehearsing the lines. The thought of your old friend fading into non-existence, blurring along the way and in the end ...forgotten.


Oh yeah, to the buddies who have found their LOVEY-DOVEY ones :D
To the boys,
Some are shy. Some just like to talk a lot (not a bad thing). Some just don't know how to express themselves. But yet I have to admit these are some of the few most eligible bachelors cause they're tough guys and yet when it comes to love, they all turn into softies and would do ANYTHING to make that someone happy. I would say any girl would be lucky to have found them because they're 好男人s I've been watchin grow up. Ha!
To the girls,
They're the best kind. A range of different personalities. I've known some of the most potential housewives to the most potential mother, the best 少奶奶? to the best girlfriends any guy would be grateful and lucky to have. They're all caring to different extents, some sacrificing more than others just to make other people happy. They're all different but they will always be there whenever you need them. And MOST of them would give in to love(some are still very strong-hearted.Haha~but would still give in to good looking guys=.=), and there can only be one explanation and is that they love you and will love you as long as you love them back.

I wish us all best of luck in the future. The future might seem cruel but I just wanna let you guys now that I appreciate and cherish you guys in my life, now more than ever.

Just another thought on growing up. Sooner or later, we all fall into the grasp of reality and time. And now (actually every moment of your life) would be a great time to appreciate the loved ones around you.

...

It was because of our imperfections we found each other...

I never thought that one day it would be these imperfections that tear us apart.

We fell apart because of our foolishness and childishness, we fell apart and crumbled within...and that is all there is to it...

I finally noticed that it isn't because we dunno who's to blame. We know it...we know exactly, we know it's them, we know it's ourselves, it's the fact that everyone thinks that nothing is gonna change and them being content with their current lives, nobody wants to change and nobody thinks it's worth it...to change and to try...

I think it's stupid and wrong... inflicting pain on both parties...them and yourselves and yet still living as it is...If you never felt the pain, you're an Ass you should know that...If you ever did, Was it worth it all?

If you think it is, I can't tell you you're wrong but yes, you are.

Those imperfections were once our strength now it's every reason we fell apart...

Countdown less than 30 days to...下一站，幸福 :)

I was always curious about how he is. I've looked through many books...and...

In the books that I'd read to find out what he's really like, there was a passage that had long settled in my heart...

很久没用华文来打字了！感觉还挺不错的。Mmm 最近也不知怎么了。I'll just stick to English anyway Lately everything is starting to change and I can sense it no matter how much I miss the past it Is going to change and I must accept that. I've come here to learn that I will one day fail too I admit i was overly confident. I just had exams and i don't think I did well all the sleeping late made me make so many careless mistakes!! @@ maths paper lost about 7 marks just because I couldn't see the numbers properly I know it sounds dramatic but it really is the case. I never knew I would have such a day... hmmm and I guess I have found a new home here not a first home but a second one but it is not far behind from my first one. I have found friends I could trust friends I could depend on and I am extremely grateful about this I am truly happy about this.I guess it really is time... When we start to pursue our dreams in different directions...It's time to go our seperate ways...Most importantly, It's time for us to grow up. Living in this small community I've learnt that Yes we have to depend on each other and we have to learn to stand on our own feet. It's life. I know it may sound cheesy...but I really am feeling it...How my perspective on life must change...I will not always be better than certain ppl and I will have to face defeat one day too. All I can do is to work hard on my life and do my best the very best so that I can achieve what I want. We here in Concord we've been helping each other so much haha and it's really great.. and now it's easter holidays even if it's only 3 weeks I feel like I'll miss them so much ( the ones who are going home) Tawau is my home and will always be but I can't go back to the old me to the old times as I believe it is time...To leave behind somethings and to carry on with somethings. I dunno I miss my Tawau friends too but it's been months since I've seen them...It's not that I've forgotten about them I'm just really grateful I've found a place here haha I've let go of hatred and of all the 偏见ness in life. I've learn to really care and love. I wasn't really good in expressing it in the past. but not really now either. it's just that seeing everyone taking their paths down each individual's own road...It really is getting to me...坏习惯要改了。要开始努力了。要开始为自己的未来着想了。不能在堕落地等待。不能再因为觉得挫败而不去尝试。来到这里总记得要常常微笑。对自己要有信心一点 :) haha 真的感觉到了要长大了。。。不知为什么突然很感性可是我仍然还想着你们。总会知道你们在的地方永远是我第一个家。可是现在大家也该长大了。不再互相依靠，当然要相聚也不难我们还是可以像以前一样坐在一起三八haha 可是同时也会有东西慢慢地、偷偷地在变。我们察觉不到可是它是存在的。不知不觉，过了一个短短的考试，经过了这段时间终于体会到了这个变化。我并不排斥，也不想再逃避。想回家可是也没有办法呀还好我这里还不错。haha 是时候长大了，为了自己的前途，不断地努力，让父母觉得安慰，觉得自己没有对不起自己，反而得到想要的，really feel like you've used your ability to achieve something useful in life so you don't feel wasted ( I like that feeling :) haha )偶尔想家，这样就够了。应该是这样吧。Life is still full of lessons to learn and it goes on...and from now on, I will learn them with an open heart ( I get ups and downs too and Life is Full of those!Haha~!) I'm not saying I'll be perfect but I'll try to be better. Each and everyday... To all my Concord friends, Good luck to all of us! Let us work hard! haha thank you to those who have been there for me.I really appreciate it and well let's just work hard TOGETHER all the way! FULL BLAST! haha To all my Tawau friends, I miss you guys as always~ HAHA just loved how things used to be haha and no matter where you guys are work hard too! cause we have to grow up one day! and I believe it is time! ahha =.= well good luck to all of us in the life ahead... Something to ponder on: Never underestimate yourself but never overestimate yourself as well~ haha cheers!

If it was because of a scar in your heart that caused you to change... I accept it
If it was because someone hurt you so badly that caused you to change...I accept it
If it was because of this, you start to change to who you are today...I accept it
'Cause I'm your friend and I'm supposed to be there for you and if you were looking for some source to heal this pain...I'll be there...because I'm your friend and if this was how it was going to be...I won't blame you cause you were hurt too. I would forgive you and understand you...I would be there for you...even though it means hurting myself :')

Because...well, I am your friend. Haha~ and probably because I can get over it...and will get over it haha again~as long if it mends that heart of yours...anything will be fine with me...'Cause...
I'm your friend :)

Haha~

No matter how many times one goes through a heartbreak... never can she get used to it...nor can she ignore it...and in the end it still hurts like crap...