If we could just stop all this...
If we could just rewind time...
If we could just understand...
If we could just tolerate...
If we could just stop doing childish things...
If we could just stop and think...
If we could just pretend nothing happened...
If we could stop being prejudice...
If we could just all have a new start...
If we could just stop hating...
If we could just stop hating each other...
But I know now's a little too late...But I still wish it wasn't true...
Ha what am I sayin they're all nothing but 'If's

This wasn't how things were meant to be... High School Drama was supposed to happen between us and other people...So that us great friends can sit around and talk about it, gossip about it...It wasn't supposed to happen between the 'us' we've built a long time ago...Even if it does, we're supposed to get through it together...Learn from our mistakes...Feel sorry if we do something wrong...Not feel happy or proud about it...We tell each other what's wrong...We understand, we admit, we tolerate, we apologize, we change...we forgive...High School Drama was supposed to be a lesson for us...Not something that brings us apart...High School Drama was supposed to end a month ago when we ended high school=.=... High School Drama should have been left behind a long time ago...It wasn't supposed to follow on...High School Drama was supposed to prove to us how strong we stand...How friendship bonds were stronger than ANY type of chemical bond...High School Drama should have ended...So that we can still be great friends at the end of it...And know how much we need each other at the end of the day...Even Toy Story characters learn better than we do =( High School Drama wasn't supposed to live on...Especially not among us...


High School Drama was just drama! It was just a play...Can we all stop acting now...?


Love,
Sandra.
in tears...


P/S: I rather everything were my fault, I'm sorry...I really am...Please...just stop...
And everything would be back to normal again...

I guess I took everything for granted, I always thought I didn't have to worry about my friends...This friendship we have...would always be there...we were always one...always together...although maybe not physically...but at least mentally...sometimes it's not about who wins a war...It's not about who lays down their pride or whatever...It's not about how only we feel...It's not about looking desperate or clinging onto...It's not about who wants or doesn't...It's about 'us', remember? the thing we spent years building... the thing we covered our blood and sweat in =P (Sounds disgusting but yeah=.=) the thing we put all our trust in...The thing we put all our patience in...The thing we all once knew it would last...or should I say, the thing we all once thought it would last=(... the thing we all once hoped it would last...Everybody thinks they're right..in what they're doing...thinking this is some form of revenge and stuff...thinking that it's alright to lose one or two friends...
If we could just care about how she or he feels...I'm sorry to all of you...I'm sorry for sending that message to you...I shouldn't have said anything...I should have just shut up...I shouldn't have jumped to conclusions from one side of the story...We know each other too well...We know he or she wouldn't do such a thing...Things that would hurt our friends...I dunno who's fault is it...I dunno who's to blame...And if we just could stop blaming each other...I'm sorry...

退让一步，海阔天空。。。

Even if you wanna start from, "Hi, my name is Sandra, what's yours?" I'm willing to...And I'm gonna try my best to keep this friendship alive...one way or another...
I'm keeping all of you...for now... =)