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It was because of our imperfections we found each other...

I never thought that one day it would be these imperfections that tear us apart.

We fell apart because of our foolishness and childishness, we fell apart and crumbled within...and that is all there is to it...

I finally noticed that it isn't because we dunno who's to blame. We know it...we know exactly, we know it's them, we know it's ourselves, it's the fact that everyone thinks that nothing is gonna change and them being content with their current lives, nobody wants to change and nobody thinks it's worth it...to change and to try...

I think it's stupid and wrong... inflicting pain on both parties...them and yourselves and yet still living as it is...If you never felt the pain, you're an Ass you should know that...If you ever did, Was it worth it all?

If you think it is, I can't tell you you're wrong but yes, you are.

Those imperfections were once our strength now it's every reason we fell apart...

Countdown less than 30 days to...下一站，幸福 :)

I was always curious about how he is. I've looked through many books...and...

In the books that I'd read to find out what he's really like, there was a passage that had long settled in my heart...

很久没用华文来打字了！感觉还挺不错的。Mmm 最近也不知怎么了。I'll just stick to English anyway Lately everything is starting to change and I can sense it no matter how much I miss the past it Is going to change and I must accept that. I've come here to learn that I will one day fail too I admit i was overly confident. I just had exams and i don't think I did well all the sleeping late made me make so many careless mistakes!! @@ maths paper lost about 7 marks just because I couldn't see the numbers properly I know it sounds dramatic but it really is the case. I never knew I would have such a day... hmmm and I guess I have found a new home here not a first home but a second one but it is not far behind from my first one. I have found friends I could trust friends I could depend on and I am extremely grateful about this I am truly happy about this.I guess it really is time... When we start to pursue our dreams in different directions...It's time to go our seperate ways...Most importantly, It's time for us to grow up. Living in this small community I've learnt that Yes we have to depend on each other and we have to learn to stand on our own feet. It's life. I know it may sound cheesy...but I really am feeling it...How my perspective on life must change...I will not always be better than certain ppl and I will have to face defeat one day too. All I can do is to work hard on my life and do my best the very best so that I can achieve what I want. We here in Concord we've been helping each other so much haha and it's really great.. and now it's easter holidays even if it's only 3 weeks I feel like I'll miss them so much ( the ones who are going home) Tawau is my home and will always be but I can't go back to the old me to the old times as I believe it is time...To leave behind somethings and to carry on with somethings. I dunno I miss my Tawau friends too but it's been months since I've seen them...It's not that I've forgotten about them I'm just really grateful I've found a place here haha I've let go of hatred and of all the 偏见ness in life. I've learn to really care and love. I wasn't really good in expressing it in the past. but not really now either. it's just that seeing everyone taking their paths down each individual's own road...It really is getting to me...坏习惯要改了。要开始努力了。要开始为自己的未来着想了。不能在堕落地等待。不能再因为觉得挫败而不去尝试。来到这里总记得要常常微笑。对自己要有信心一点 :) haha 真的感觉到了要长大了。。。不知为什么突然很感性可是我仍然还想着你们。总会知道你们在的地方永远是我第一个家。可是现在大家也该长大了。不再互相依靠，当然要相聚也不难我们还是可以像以前一样坐在一起三八haha 可是同时也会有东西慢慢地、偷偷地在变。我们察觉不到可是它是存在的。不知不觉，过了一个短短的考试，经过了这段时间终于体会到了这个变化。我并不排斥，也不想再逃避。想回家可是也没有办法呀还好我这里还不错。haha 是时候长大了，为了自己的前途，不断地努力，让父母觉得安慰，觉得自己没有对不起自己，反而得到想要的，really feel like you've used your ability to achieve something useful in life so you don't feel wasted ( I like that feeling :) haha )偶尔想家，这样就够了。应该是这样吧。Life is still full of lessons to learn and it goes on...and from now on, I will learn them with an open heart ( I get ups and downs too and Life is Full of those!Haha~!) I'm not saying I'll be perfect but I'll try to be better. Each and everyday... To all my Concord friends, Good luck to all of us! Let us work hard! haha thank you to those who have been there for me.I really appreciate it and well let's just work hard TOGETHER all the way! FULL BLAST! haha To all my Tawau friends, I miss you guys as always~ HAHA just loved how things used to be haha and no matter where you guys are work hard too! cause we have to grow up one day! and I believe it is time! ahha =.= well good luck to all of us in the life ahead... Something to ponder on: Never underestimate yourself but never overestimate yourself as well~ haha cheers!

If it was because of a scar in your heart that caused you to change... I accept it
If it was because someone hurt you so badly that caused you to change...I accept it
If it was because of this, you start to change to who you are today...I accept it
'Cause I'm your friend and I'm supposed to be there for you and if you were looking for some source to heal this pain...I'll be there...because I'm your friend and if this was how it was going to be...I won't blame you cause you were hurt too. I would forgive you and understand you...I would be there for you...even though it means hurting myself :')

Because...well, I am your friend. Haha~ and probably because I can get over it...and will get over it haha again~as long if it mends that heart of yours...anything will be fine with me...'Cause...
I'm your friend :)

Haha~

No matter how many times one goes through a heartbreak... never can she get used to it...nor can she ignore it...and in the end it still hurts like crap...

A forgiveness that never came...

Dear you,



Hey! It has been 3 months now... How are you? I just wanna know whether you're doing OK in your homework. Or are you getting enough help that you need... I know I wasn't the best help you had... I couldn't finish what I've started...I've never finished what I've started... So you probably think I'm quite worthless to begin with well, erm...I'm sorry...

I just wanna know how have you been because I know how you are and you're always not tellin anyone stuff...I always wanted to be the one you would tell stuff to...Let's just say I was almost there =( OK... getting a little personal...=.=



Well, there's just so much things I wanna know...Are your lifetime dreams still the same? Do you still want to achieve the things you once told me about? One of the reasons I still have mine cause you wanna be one too and you're not giving up and maybe one day we can be I dunno== friends?=.= I just wanna ask so many things but I dunno where to start...cause I don't even know how our friendship sort of partially ended...I don't know what I wanna know...I wanna know if you've forgiven me...I wanna know if you've changed...I wanna know...well I dunno... :)

Haha anyway, it's been 3 months so...I won't blame you if you don't want to =.=



anyway...I'm fine here...I know you don't wanna know..er...You should've came too! You should come this Septemeber! Haha hopefully you will...erm...

what else?



Just update me on things happening k?

cause I wanna know and I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry...





Sandra



It's not that I didn't care...It's because well I dunno I was probably a bitch after I found another source of happiness... but I couldn't help it (lookin for excuses for myself=.=Well now I've got my 报应 haha...) well I really thought I couldnt cause I didnt know what to do next...I gave up hope I didnt know what my next step should be I was expecting a forgiveness one day..anyday...but it never came...I'm sorry but I really care and as a friend I wanna know...



I'm typin it on my blog for a reason... haha cause I know...that no matter where I type it...There wouldn't be a reply...

Forgive me? =.= haiz 算了啦。。。

I once thought about loads of things how things changed the past few months and that so many conflicts going on...How am I supposed to solve everything blah blah blah well it's a 38 persons basic instincts I guess haha...then I notice that I have sooo many issues myself...Haha...CHeers people~! I once thought I've learnt a lot of life lessons and stuff but I just found out that there are still so many more...and maybe sometimes they're just the same ones repeating themselves over and over again...But even if it does, it still doesn't make it any easier trying to get through them...all over again...especially if it's concerning our loved ones...And I have so many issues now...I'm freakin out=.=