Lessons in Life

Chapter#1:
Learnin' to let go is the first thing you have to learn before you learn to love...

I am now crying for someone that I swore I would never shed tears for~ ='(
And I dunno why~

Cause you're hot and you're cold, you're yes then you're no~ and it's drivin me nuts :'( sigh

Feel happy to see you...Feel good around you...Fallin' for you...I think I like you...~
Wait.~What?! I thought I... I thought I just saw *sigh nevermind
SHeesh How could I have missed that U-turn *sigh

Finally after a whole night everything's cleared out~ Just needed some sea breeze and a few hours thinkin~ WHat the hell was I thinkin? ha end of story~~

"Reachin' for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore~"
Dunno what I'm fussin over but I'm sure it's quite clear to some people, but it ain't to me~

I forgot how it felt like to sit in front of the screen and listen to songs like need you now and fallin' slowly repeat itself again and again~
I forgot how it felt like to have the song lyrics match my feelings at that exact moment the songs starts playin'~
I forgot how it felt like to do double takes at someone~
I forgot how emptiness feels~
I forgot how the world goes round when you see him~
I forgot how it feels sour when he's not with you~
I forgot how it feels to hate that other person that's close to him~
I forgot how it felt like to really like a person~
I've forgotten, I forget, and then they all come back to me again~

I have to stop~ cause things are gettin out of hand~ "Guess I rather hurt than feel nothin at all"
This will fade slowly and I know it will~ cause I know me too well and it's time to "pack up" and never "unpack" them ever again~ for the next few months =) ha wish me luck~

Cleanin out my stuff XD

Was clearin' stuff outta my room~ and I saw lots of stuff that I didn't know what use they had. And suddenly these stuff got me thinkin...
the next paragraph's gonna be in chinese XD

能保留回忆的东西, 过了一段时间只能让人回顾一下当时候那一点的快乐。。。或悲伤。。。

有些东西看了会让你想起他曾经是有多么地爱过你
有些东西却会让你想起一些痛苦、让你感到遗憾的回忆
虽然让你记起一些不快乐的事可是这些都是唯一能把你和他连在一起的东西。。。

Someday a long time ago,

或许你已经找到对你更有意义的回忆，把之前的那些都丢了，已经向前走，再也不望回头。那我为什么还不放手，拿着这些，望着你的背影渐渐地离去，然后偷偷地哭泣。。。

一开始就不该保留些什么的，知道后来还要烦恼和犹豫，心里还是痒痒的，最后还是收着了。
明明知道，这些东西过了一段时间，意义会渐渐消失，然后你会觉得它有点罢位子，不知该怎么处理。
要丢呢？还是要收着？
收着很罢位子，也不知它还有什么用处
丢掉又觉得可惜，再也无法拿着它再度回忆当时真实、快乐过的感觉。。。

Today...
现在事情都过了那么久，我还是拿着同样的东西问我自己，“要收着还是把它丢了？”
这次我会犹豫，不是因为对你耿耿于怀，只是觉得它意义重大，绝对与你无关。
我拿着它，看了我的房间，觉得很乱~Haha XD, 叹了一口气，就把它直往垃圾桶丢了。

The End~