Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Monday, February 11, 2013
Experimental (Read with rhythm maybe?)
I don't have much experience with heartbreaks.
I'm not good at cleaning up the mess after getting my heartbroken either.
//
I've studied Biology before but my teacher never taught me which part of the heart would hurt and now it's really happening to me. Would it break literally? I dunno. But I'd really like to open myself up and take it out to see. And maybe just maybe try and repair it however clumsily, I don't care. As long as I get the job done. But I tell you I'm a medic and I've held a dozen hearts. Maybe I'm just blind or maybe I'm just not lookin hard enough but I don't see it.
All these guys said they'd walk on water for you, but Baby if you really want to, I could buy the whole ocean for you.
This guy said he'd catch a grenade for you, Baby I would get the military to bring the rain on me. Just to let you see. How much I love you. And as long as you're happy.
I'd do everything for you. Just to prove that this love is true. I really want to.
Prove to you that my heart beats only for you and breaks when I can't see you. God, you know I fxxkin' miss you.
/
One day, this genie appeared and told me I had three wishes. He explained to me carefully what he could and couldn't do. But I still wasted my first two wishes asking for you. Asking for you to fall in love with me again, beggin like a fool. He said no and told me," I can't do nothin that involves love or death. You either waste it or take it, you've just got one more wish left. So please think about it carefully. And let me know, when you're ready, I'll be here, I'll be waiting but just don't be too slow and stay steady."
//
"I thought about it." I just need one night with you. This one night. One night to prove to you. How much I love you. And maybe, maybe baby you could see it through. When you see how much I love you and how much I could do for you.
That night, when I appeared in front of you, you looked shocked and outraged. You turned and started walkin when I was nervous and shakin but still I grabbed your hand, sayin "Don't leave me now. You'd know how much it hurt me back then. There's only a limited amount of pain that I can stand. Can't you see how much I'm dying inside? I need you in my life, why can't you see it for yourself? Why did you have to cause so much pain and suffering in myself?"
And all you said was,"Prove it to me." And that was it.
/
I knew exactly what I needed to do. I looked you in the eye and said "... I love you."
You looked back but I couldn't see myself in your eyes anymore. Could it be that you were seeing someone else during the time when I was gone?
By the next morning, you left. You made it obvious enough, you left the bedroom door open behind you just before you took off. The genie reappeared and told me,"Your wishes are no more." And with that he left, leaving me feelin nothin but sore.
And so I laid on the bed as I stared out of the door. Thinkin' it over and over again.
What may have gone wrong.
You told me it wasn't my fault, you were just getting bored.
At first, you didn't like me but when you said 'Yes', I swear my heart soared.
Our relationship was like a suspension bridge. I tried to maintain. Tried to balance it out so that it wouldn't sway. Even in the strongest winds. Baby, I kept us both on this bridge. I swear, if it were you and him, he would have pushed you off to save his own ass. But you don't care, you jumped off our bridge anyway. Just to be with him and at last, you and me, we ain't together. But you know we had a blast. You couldn't see it, you were so blinded and now look, what we had was special and is now all in the past.
/
You tell me, how could I have understood that. Just thinkin bout it, it makes me, it just makes me so angry and so mad. You said you were gettin bored of me, Baby were you getting tired? Were there too many diamond rings? Or were there too many expensive things? Baby, I've never cheated on you but you had a hundred flings. You thought I never knew. Just cause I pretended not to care, I never bothered and I'd just let you be. And now you wanna leave me. That I just don't understand. All this, it just makes me think about what you look for in a man. Baby, please understand that it's hard for me, cause I've always been there for you thinkin that you'll be there for me too. But you just neglected it all. Gave me a cold shoulder, shrugged it off and till now, till today you won't even answer my calls.
It's been 4 years now, and on this day, on this snow covered ground, I see your footsteps and I just started followin them around. Going after you has always been a habit of mine. I do it again and again and I don't even notice half of the time. Not long later, another set of footsteps appeared, right next to yours. I can picture it now, him leaning in for a kiss just before getting off the train. How you would hold hands and walk off together on this snowy day. It was painful for me to think about it, let alone for me to say. Too cold to carry on, I lay down, on this snow covered ground. All the blood and nerves inside me were freezing and I started to lose all feeling. I guess it's almost time for Goodbye. A teardrop managed to squeeze out of my eye. And that was the last of it. The last warmth I'll ever feel. That last tear drop froze on my cheek and stayed very still. And from then, everything was numb. I close my eyes and thought to myself:
Ahh, everything feels so much better now.
I'm in a better place.
At least I can see you whenever I want to.
Even though you don't see me, know that I'm always watchin over you.
Even though you don't feel me, know that I'm always there to hold you to sleep.
Even though you don't hear me, know that I'm always tellin you everyday that "I love you."
And I really meant it. I still mean it. I always think that what we had was better.
And only if you could have seen it. Baby, maybe we'd still be together.
**Beats: Stan-Eminem (Instrumental) And if you can read this with a rhythm, it would probably sound better. :)
Credits to: Olivia Thio for Biology inspiration (when she was drunk).
I'm not good at cleaning up the mess after getting my heartbroken either.
//
I've studied Biology before but my teacher never taught me which part of the heart would hurt and now it's really happening to me. Would it break literally? I dunno. But I'd really like to open myself up and take it out to see. And maybe just maybe try and repair it however clumsily, I don't care. As long as I get the job done. But I tell you I'm a medic and I've held a dozen hearts. Maybe I'm just blind or maybe I'm just not lookin hard enough but I don't see it.
All these guys said they'd walk on water for you, but Baby if you really want to, I could buy the whole ocean for you.
This guy said he'd catch a grenade for you, Baby I would get the military to bring the rain on me. Just to let you see. How much I love you. And as long as you're happy.
I'd do everything for you. Just to prove that this love is true. I really want to.
Prove to you that my heart beats only for you and breaks when I can't see you. God, you know I fxxkin' miss you.
/
One day, this genie appeared and told me I had three wishes. He explained to me carefully what he could and couldn't do. But I still wasted my first two wishes asking for you. Asking for you to fall in love with me again, beggin like a fool. He said no and told me," I can't do nothin that involves love or death. You either waste it or take it, you've just got one more wish left. So please think about it carefully. And let me know, when you're ready, I'll be here, I'll be waiting but just don't be too slow and stay steady."
//
"I thought about it." I just need one night with you. This one night. One night to prove to you. How much I love you. And maybe, maybe baby you could see it through. When you see how much I love you and how much I could do for you.
That night, when I appeared in front of you, you looked shocked and outraged. You turned and started walkin when I was nervous and shakin but still I grabbed your hand, sayin "Don't leave me now. You'd know how much it hurt me back then. There's only a limited amount of pain that I can stand. Can't you see how much I'm dying inside? I need you in my life, why can't you see it for yourself? Why did you have to cause so much pain and suffering in myself?"
And all you said was,"Prove it to me." And that was it.
/
I knew exactly what I needed to do. I looked you in the eye and said "... I love you."
You looked back but I couldn't see myself in your eyes anymore. Could it be that you were seeing someone else during the time when I was gone?
By the next morning, you left. You made it obvious enough, you left the bedroom door open behind you just before you took off. The genie reappeared and told me,"Your wishes are no more." And with that he left, leaving me feelin nothin but sore.
And so I laid on the bed as I stared out of the door. Thinkin' it over and over again.
What may have gone wrong.
You told me it wasn't my fault, you were just getting bored.
At first, you didn't like me but when you said 'Yes', I swear my heart soared.
Our relationship was like a suspension bridge. I tried to maintain. Tried to balance it out so that it wouldn't sway. Even in the strongest winds. Baby, I kept us both on this bridge. I swear, if it were you and him, he would have pushed you off to save his own ass. But you don't care, you jumped off our bridge anyway. Just to be with him and at last, you and me, we ain't together. But you know we had a blast. You couldn't see it, you were so blinded and now look, what we had was special and is now all in the past.
/
You tell me, how could I have understood that. Just thinkin bout it, it makes me, it just makes me so angry and so mad. You said you were gettin bored of me, Baby were you getting tired? Were there too many diamond rings? Or were there too many expensive things? Baby, I've never cheated on you but you had a hundred flings. You thought I never knew. Just cause I pretended not to care, I never bothered and I'd just let you be. And now you wanna leave me. That I just don't understand. All this, it just makes me think about what you look for in a man. Baby, please understand that it's hard for me, cause I've always been there for you thinkin that you'll be there for me too. But you just neglected it all. Gave me a cold shoulder, shrugged it off and till now, till today you won't even answer my calls.
It's been 4 years now, and on this day, on this snow covered ground, I see your footsteps and I just started followin them around. Going after you has always been a habit of mine. I do it again and again and I don't even notice half of the time. Not long later, another set of footsteps appeared, right next to yours. I can picture it now, him leaning in for a kiss just before getting off the train. How you would hold hands and walk off together on this snowy day. It was painful for me to think about it, let alone for me to say. Too cold to carry on, I lay down, on this snow covered ground. All the blood and nerves inside me were freezing and I started to lose all feeling. I guess it's almost time for Goodbye. A teardrop managed to squeeze out of my eye. And that was the last of it. The last warmth I'll ever feel. That last tear drop froze on my cheek and stayed very still. And from then, everything was numb. I close my eyes and thought to myself:
Ahh, everything feels so much better now.
I'm in a better place.
At least I can see you whenever I want to.
Even though you don't see me, know that I'm always watchin over you.
Even though you don't feel me, know that I'm always there to hold you to sleep.
Even though you don't hear me, know that I'm always tellin you everyday that "I love you."
And I really meant it. I still mean it. I always think that what we had was better.
And only if you could have seen it. Baby, maybe we'd still be together.
**Beats: Stan-Eminem (Instrumental) And if you can read this with a rhythm, it would probably sound better. :)
Credits to: Olivia Thio for Biology inspiration (when she was drunk).
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