只怕我自己会愛上你
不该让自己靠得太近
怕我没什么能够给你
愛你也许要佷大的勇气

只怕我自己会愛上你
也许有天会情不自禁
想念只让自己苦了自己
愛上你是我情非得已~ ;P

:Heart: this song @.@

Holidays, and it's only the start

7/6/2010 Afternoon

Just found out can't go to the toastmaster's club camp...=.= anyway
didn't know what to do at home... thinkin about the people who just came back from JC camp. texted some of them...no replies...*sob=.= ha anyway was thinkin how am I supposed to spend the next few days of holidays=.=... Parents going over to KK soon=.=... thinkin if I should follow=.= anyway, I'm bored=.=

I was sittin around feelin bored, when I found out I was missin someone bahahahahahahahhahahahahahhaha ...... =.=""" ..............badly......=.="""........................
Great~ =.=~
Weird~=.=

To believe or not to believe~(Edited version)

A whole new different perspective~
A whole new different conclusion~

Conclusion: Believe everyone...

Gotta change my "Trust no one" attitude, y'know why? cause not trustin anybody will just cause more conflicts and frustrations...

Advice: Trust everyone, just believe what everyone says and nobody gets hurt=.= just act along and play along...I didn't sign up for some detective school or somethin...
If you really don't wanna believe or you already know the truth, then act like you do still believe them and play along...=.= it's less dramatic and trust me(please do-.-), less problematic and less emo~

Trusting everyone now...=.= "Yes, whatever you say..."
" Yes, Man!" ha~

Sleepover~~ And MORE RICE BAHAHAHHAHA

Parents' are not in, Cass came for a sleepover. too terrified to sleep alone @.@
anyway, we had so much fun =P drinking coke and i finally know how to 38 other people's business through FB (all thakns to cass lau) anyway had fun stayin up to 4.30am in the end couldn take it anymore@.@ went to bed
Fact: Did you know CAssaNDRA LAU can start 38ing and typing at 11pm all the way until 2 am?
Wow, i was watchin "Ugly Betty" when i noticed that she hasnt stop typin since 2 hours ago=.=
anyway woke up late the next day 11++ had lots of fun!!it wasnt fun fun(waht do you expect its tawau) but it was a great and extremely sunny, brighty day XD No details ahha BABBABABAAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHA

The End~

吃飯lu~~

This is what I've been hearin for the past 3 months and somehow I like it =D
anyway for those of you who understand, you get it. for those who don't, nevermind =)

I updated, haha should be a good thing right? @.@
lately there's been plenty of ups and downs... busy busy...........bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....
exams.........................=.=
and something tht involves a certain special someone~
HAHHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA
ANyway...................
wuhoo Sandra is startin to listen to chinese songs again =p just found out no matter how emo chinese songs can get, they're good =)
Bout the ups and downs, hmmm... I dunno.. I'm not sure if i should be happy or sad @.@ weird
No matter how sad I get...When I see you, I feel like I can fly... Invonluntary smiles start appearin =)
Everywhere I go, I find myself INVOLUTARILY lookin for you..HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH...I know why=) I know I'm desperate allalalalalalla~ But I like it ahahhaahhahahahahahahahahahahahahha
I know it's cliche but honestly just thinkin about you brightens everythin up...No matter how hard things get..No matter how stressful English week was( I saw you standin in a corner =p bahahhahahah), No matter how embarassin it is to do a solo on installation night, No matter how difficult that Biology paper is, one glance at you changes everythin =)


-29/5/2010 (Sat)
Typed while listenin to Jay Chou's songs

P/S: Whoever who reads this, if you honestly think I'm DESPEradO, I honestly am =) (But it's still best not to think tht way =.=) haha thanks for stoppin by Cheers~

I'm sorry that I changed my pace..I don't know why I did it..Maybe it's because I needed some space..
In Love, Hearts were never meant to race..
And now I can't even reach your face..

(part of CB's lyrics)

你的到来让我的人生变得多么地快乐，你的离去却留下了无比的悲哀。。

正常。


You brought to my life..not just joy..but a warmth I have yet to feel..if it weren't for you..I have never felt so alive before..my heart that was once destined to be frozen somehow started pumping normally again..it was great, really..


But then you left..during my absence..leaving nothing..no regret..no guilt..I guess it was just meant to be..My world's back to the old days now..cold and emotionless..

I'm sorry..for whatever I did wrong..I should have seen the signs you were trying to show me that you were gonna leave me..
I'm sorry for whatever I did not do right..I should have known you better..

There are a tons of thing I wanted to do with you..I was thinking them all out..planning every move carefully..but I can't do that anymore..

I'm sorry, I'm really really... sorry....

But I wanna thank you too..for leaving me before I looked and treated you as a "habit", before I took you for granted..(don't get me wrong, it hurts..it really does..but at least the scar would heal without too much pain and guilt) I know I really cared for you instead of just pretending to..I really did..at least I know I loved you..At least I won't feel too sorry or bad about things..I just hope you know that I really really did love you..I never thought you would leave so quick..so forgive me..cause I too didn't want things to end this way..I don't know why you left..but I just hope you don't regret too much as me being your last owner..

May you rest in peace..Chester..
We miss you..and we love you forever and ever..Promise..
although we missed out on a lot of things, at least, this is the one,last promise I can keep..It's the best I can do..

I'm sorry..


Dedicated to my bunny Chester who left me so suddenly during my absence..